The past couple of days have been more
exhausting than anything else. I guess, however, as I am discovering, that is just
a part of mommyhood :)
Anna has been a challenge lately. From tantrums, hitting, pinching, wiping her nose on anything BUT a tissue, singing in a loud voice for even our neighbors to hear that keeps her sister up at night, drawing with chalk and pen on anything and everything, to many, many more things I never knew would occur to someone to do. I've had many days where I wonder who took away the sweet little girl I once knew. Ha ha. I go to bed at night praying that somehow, despite all of my weaknesses and inadequacies, the kids will be physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually healthy and stable, able to have happy lives, and that I will be able to continue to love them and grow to love them even more. Well, and that I will survive through some of those "days" still functioning as a sane individual ;). Some days are fairly conflict-free and others I am just grateful when we get to bedtime (and it happens to be early ;) ), but I have realized that those "days" do pass and that there is a tomorrow that begins "fresh, with no mistakes in it", a quote from one of my favorite movies, Anne of Green Gables. Through the challenges since taking on instant mommyhood, and especially the past few weeks, I have realized many things, among them first, how wonderful it is to have a husband who stands by me no matter how grumpy or burned out I am, who always does whatever he can to help me, and who is very sensitive and understanding to all that I'm going through; Second, how important it is to savor the good moments and remember them when there's a 2 yr old drawing on the pillows; Third, how amazing and yet humbling it is to have a Heavenly Father who trusts me enough to let me raise three of His children.
So, though the tantrums are trying as is the two-yr old who throws them, I know this is where I am supposed to be and that somehow, as long as I'm doing my best, it will all work out for the best!
